I Am Broken

I have been waiting by the window
For thirty years
Waiting for that mythical elixir
Extracted from the Jabberwocky.

My face is a mask
Of shifting ink blots
A window and a wall
Break down the door!

They lie
I listen
They scream
I hold the night.

Pinche mocoso
Bueno para nada
Lárgate
Nadie de quiere.

Ew
I’m not that
Desperate.

Fucking sellout
You’re not a real
Mexican.

Jerk
I fucking
Hate you.

Motherfucker
Aint nobody
Give a shit
About you.

I am tired
Of waiting
I am tired
Of eating the night.

Excuse me as I evaporate
Into the ancient myst
Pulsing
With unbreakable light.